AaronHolden16

my life is getting better need to start doing more poetry just looking at it again remembering my many memories and doing my joy dance life is getting better instead of looking at the death that surrounds me i look at the joy in those people i knew that sure i wish i still know but the things i learnt from them and how i matured over the years all i can say is THANK YOU TO THEM ALL!!!!!!!! YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME moving on with life hopeing for things to keep getting better is all i can do

sometimes i wonder why i bother waking up i definatly need 2 sort out my life i am somehow being punished for my past sins i have nightmares almost everyday and used 2 be everyday about 1 thing which is my deepest regrets to think that some people my age wudnt even have any regrets as big as mine i did something really bad and cant go back in time and correct that, aside from that my exbf when i was younger who i was extremly mean 2 got cancer and apparently died i just wish we cud speak again i wish i wasnt so mean i need 2 proper change my life but dont know how i need 2 be the person i want 2 be and right now i dont know how these burdens weigh me down this year my auntie died of cancer and so many things i wished i said 2 her i just wish she was still there things arent the same,and then theres the fact that im unemployed single and no1 will ever go 4 me that i do like they either taken or im just 2 ugly 4 them 2 give me a chance i just wish i had sum1 to share my life with sum1 2 hug and be there 4 my lifes a mess its like a hole that i cant fill and i need to improve it but no idea how i thought about suicide 100 times the person who i spoke about my ex saved my life when i was going thru the agony of being gay and thinking people wudnt accept me and being bullied 4 it and then im told he died so he saved me and died like few weeks after im sorry but his life is worth my life a thousand times over so i cant kill myself cause of him i feel responsible that he got cancer and i shudnt cause it was god or sumthin im alive and hes not when he saved my life thats all i know im ugly im awkward in conversations never know what to say and in a way i just wish everythin was over and that makes me a coward but i dont deserve this life and i never will my friends have all drifted away from me and i cant go back to those days and make things right my family are mostly depressed at moment since auntie died and wish they would move on,things are just so difficult just so hard 2 see the joy when ur all alone haveing done sooo much evil and only deserve the death penalty

hey everyone im back on this but my life has been changing for the better im a normal guy and hope u will spend a few mins to read this:

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Thank You

aint wrote on this for ages so going to be best man for brothers wedding cant seem to find true love and life pretty messed up hope life gd 4 u all xxx life crap 4 me but gd 2 know if u gd

on saturday 2 days ago i helped at da homeless shelter i became a volunteer if there arent volunteers it cnt b open so i helped 4 2 hrs there i saw things that really shocked me tbh i hadnt seen many homeless on the isle of man and the ones i saw had shockin stories like 1 man had no fingers and only thumbs thing is i did not know this and i shook his hand then thought hmm sumthin wrong here then l8er told he had no fingers i thought maybe he had fingers he just couldnt move them or sumthin but he didnt have any they were burnt off in accident years before. Another only got 2 hrs sleep a night dno wots up with him he fell asleep on bus and ended up in a town he wasnt meant to be in wen he woke up he looked out window and like i not meant to be here lol those are just some stories i say help those in need and you will be a friend to all in deed please help ppl like the homless atm there alot of people needin help in Burma help them because how would you like it if u got into there circumstances anyway thanks thats all i have to say i there every saturday now cya xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx